Monday, May 30, 2011 >>10:50 AM

Haix,,,
I hate people commenting on my status with all life meaning thingy.
Abit bui song her.
Haix, but cant blame her as she likes to talk about life.
early know dun write bout life already...
Urgh, reallly ar,
Why things i wish for always come at times i didnt ask for?
And it will come suddenly.
When you didnt ask for or wish for, they will
goes to yyou.
It always happen.
Every i wish i can win weehiang, but i cant do it.
Whenever i dun care, i will win her unexpectedly.
Getting to top ten in mid year is what i asked for
since the day i started school.
It gave me hopes and a goal to reaached for,
but in the end, i didnt get into top ten.
And it really made me loses all my hopes ,
making me to feel like giving up.
Nothing really push to study again.
There is no hope and no goal.
This mid year gave me a idea that work hard is useless.
If i knew i will get a lousy results,
i wouldnt have wasted my sleep to study.
I am regretting.
But i had no choice ,
since this is the decision i made to take amaths,
i have to carry on till i cannot take it.
I wanted to drop amaths in the first term,
cause i know between amaths and poa, there is no more hope in amaths.
But papa say i had to try , no matter what.
But now, it really proves i cant take amaths.
But yaya say experience is more important than getting into top ten.
i felt demoralised and not wanting to study again.
Amaths, i cannot without any help. Realllly.
I asked for tuition for amaths before mid year,
they dun agreed..
Now i want drop amaths, they stopped me.
Why??? Am i that useless till i cant even made a decision?
Amaths is a subject where i felt i am damn useless
till i cant look up.
a subject where all my close friends did not take except me.
So i really is all alone in the lesson.
Lonely, and i dunno where to seek for help.
I cant always ask Fionna, she had her o level.
WTH i am going to do now?
How come i am always the one being stuck?
How come i am always the unlucky one?
How come i always choosing the wrong decision?
How come my life is full of regrets?
Why?/ I dun understand?
There is not a decision where i can feel proud of myself?
Determination, endurance, positive mindset,
excuse me man, i do not have all these qualities anymore.
Determination? I am losing my patient now.
Endurace, i one sec also cant take it .
Positive mindset, now i only have ftisland in my mind.
It is enough, i been through to many alr.
enough is enough, more i cant take it!
Regretting is what i always feel since i get into sec sch.
There is nothing i did right,
choosing the wrong CCA,
choosing the wrong subjects,
choosing the wrong time to start study.
I didnt study in sec3,
so i did not have any basic knowledge of POA and AMATHS.
Wahhhleu, sandy lim, when the hell you can become smart?
Fang cong ming yi dian!
Fighting spirit , please come back,
and let me have the enjoyment in study again.
Let me the have the idea that one hard work will be shown in results.
Let me have the hope and goal again.
This time, i really cant afford to lose anymore,
Not lose, is cant afford to have lousy results again , please.
STAND AGAIN, SANDY LIM.